Its a truth universally acknowledged, that a single man in possession of a good fortune, must be in want of a wife.

Oh Jane.
My Best friend for Christmas bought me this beauty. The complete novels of Jane Austin, I already have all of them however I look forward to breaking this book in... well several novels.
Oh what I would do to live in one  of her novels, to be Elizabeth Bennett or Emma. The 21st century really lacks the sophistication, and all the people hold such charisma... even Mr Collins! It saddens  me to think of how many don't have wonderful conversations about art and literature and share the enjoyment of a dance.
I feel like a Georgian woman trapped in the 21st century. Woe.

What about the rest of us?

Almost every book i have read that even brushes on the concept of romance always has a very similar ending. Normally, the main character starts off single and then all of a sudden their 'dream' partner comes into their life, it wont be perfect between them straight away, something will happen there will be a BUT... like the person is already in a relationship or they can't get in a relationship yet because of an unforeseeable reason, nevertheless everything will work it's self out in the end though and they will get together and they will be happy. I am not saying anything bad about books like that of course but, it beckoned on me that i've never come across a book or play when they don't find someone. These books tend to give us all this little bit of hope and deep down we all believe that this dream person is going to come into our life and there will be a little complication but they wont give up on each other and they will live 'happily ever after'.
I'm am without relationship and people say that i am lonely. Where is there a book about people like me, who don't have anyone, where's the brutal truth about not finding someone. About watching your two best friends being in relationships and being happy while you have no one. Where is there mention of how when you see a relationship and happy people and it makes you feel alienated? We hear about unrequited love but, what about those who have no one to love? This is me. There is no one for me to like and no one for me to love and i partially blame books for my high expectations as i don't think i'll ever find my Mr Darcy. When you go so long without someone and everyone around you is with someone as soon as an opportunity arises and someone finally is interested in you, you have the tendency to automatically get with them because there is no one else and because of the worry about what if there never will be anyone else. We find it easier having someone else to make us happy without even considering making ourselves happy.  Many even like someone because that person likes them, not really for who they are.
I personally am beginning to except that there is not going to be anyone for the next few years and that is tough as i have to rely on myself which isn't something that i am used to. However there is a trap that i could fall into, when there is no one to like or admire people have the tendency to create someone in their head but you can't be like Gatsby, you can't build upon something for so long to never find in reality the person of your imagination. I sometimes brand myself as being lonely but that would be a lie, i am not lonely i am alone.

"My thoughts are stars i can't fathom into constellations."

Sometimes i forget about how a book can impact your day to day life, however i was happily reminded of this by a book i read in the Summer. It was a book called 'The fault in our stars' by John Green. The book was full of such beautiful writing it truly reminded me of the beauty of literature. I have now just finished the book for the 16th time... and i still love it! It evoked emotion i did not realise i could feel. The characters have a certain unforgettable charisma. The main character points out something i believe many book lovers can  relate to- that is when you love a book so much you almost want to keep it a secret for only yourself to enjoy. That is what this book is to me. Writing about it here is the first i have ever spoken about it in the 6 months that i have read it. The book has a place in my bed quite literately, it is there beside me at night and i often wake up randomly and passages from it, if not the whole book. What fascinates me the most is how John Green could create such in depth characters of whom everything they say has such a relevant meaning. SPOILER ALERT! The lead male character Augustus Waters- a cancer survivor holds an unlit cigarette in his mouth as a metaphor of holding death between his lips and who fears oblivion. Ultimately one of my favourite books... although i do admit almost every book is my favourite book. 

I have also been reading one of THE best novels of American literature; The Great Gatsby. I am currently reading it as part of my first year A levels. Honestly no words can explain the genius of Fitzgerald. I will most likely be commenting on it or quoting it on many posts. Tomorrow in class we are reading chapter 9 the funeral- needless to say we are all dressing in black to celebrate our fallen tragic hero. 

Day 1

26th June 2012
Yesterday was rather a victorious day i in fact read 2 books, both which i started on the same day; go me!
First book being, 'Grow up' by Ben Brooks who's a 19 year old author from Gloucestershire. The second was 'The importance of being Earnest' by Oscar Wild. I will be posting some reviews and information on the books shortly.. hopefully when i have written the reviews and taken some photos. 

Books books books

I am currently on my summer break before I join 6th form of which I can already sense some boring days ahead, therefore, I have set myself the colossal challenge of seeing how many books one can read throughout the summer. I am looking into going into publishing when I'm older So I thought this would seem a wise thing to do. On this blog I will be posting each book as I read them with a brief description, a review and most probably a picture. Well... Let the challenge begin.