Almost every book i have read that even brushes on the concept of romance always has a very similar ending. Normally, the main character starts off single and then all of a sudden their 'dream' partner comes into their life, it wont be perfect between them straight away, something will happen there will be a BUT... like the person is already in a relationship or they can't get in a relationship yet because of an unforeseeable reason, nevertheless everything will work it's self out in the end though and they will get together and they will be happy. I am not saying anything bad about books like that of course but, it beckoned on me that i've never come across a book or play when they don't find someone. These books tend to give us all this little bit of hope and deep down we all believe that this dream person is going to come into our life and there will be a little complication but they wont give up on each other and they will live 'happily ever after'.
I'm am without relationship and people say that i am lonely. Where is there a book about people like me, who don't have anyone, where's the brutal truth about not finding someone. About watching your two best friends being in relationships and being happy while you have no one. Where is there mention of how when you see a relationship and happy people and it makes you feel alienated? We hear about unrequited love but, what about those who have no one to love? This is me. There is no one for me to like and no one for me to love and i partially blame books for my high expectations as i don't think i'll ever find my Mr Darcy. When you go so long without someone and everyone around you is with someone as soon as an opportunity arises and someone finally is interested in you, you have the tendency to automatically get with them because there is no one else and because of the worry about what if there never will be anyone else. We find it easier having someone else to make us happy without even considering making ourselves happy. Many even like someone because that person likes them, not really for who they are.
I personally am beginning to except that there is not going to be anyone for the next few years and that is tough as i have to rely on myself which isn't something that i am used to. However there is a trap that i could fall into, when there is no one to like or admire people have the tendency to create someone in their head but you can't be like Gatsby, you can't build upon something for so long to never find in reality the person of your imagination. I sometimes brand myself as being lonely but that would be a lie, i am not lonely i am alone.

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